What do you really want? What are your long term goals? What do you want to create for yourself that seems impossible now?
The daily grind is an easy distraction of the trajectory we set for our lives. Every so often I have to take a moment to ask myself these very questions. On certain occasions I have found that the goals I had been working towards no longer fit or resonate with who I am anymore.
There was a time when I was young that I dreamed of becoming a figure skater. I wanted it so badly that I even shed tears (more than once) watching these beautiful athletes in their sparkling outfits twirl and leap around the ice during the winter olympics (funny thing, I had never even tried it). A while later I imagined becoming a child psychologist, then a marine biologist, a college professor, and a teacher.
Then life happened. During college to be a teacher I found a job with my friends mom who ran a private foster agency. Thats when I decided to go into social services. I adjusted my goals and dreams as life changed. It was never a goal nor even a thought or possibility to do the work I am doing today. It was a product of life unfolding and choosing new directions by trusting the evolution of possibilities and my own intuition.
One profound understanding I learned is the more I heal old trauma and false beliefs I change what I seek. My dreams are layers of what I felt I was unworthy of or what seemed impossible to obtain at the time. The young me wanting to be a figure skater wanted to work hard and do something beautiful and magical to inspire others, the mildly older me wanted to ease the suffering of others while proving to myself I was smart, hardworking and worthy of a higher education.
Dreams are forever changing. Dreams are just creating what you feel is impossible or difficult to you now. Once they are accomplished you create new ones or maybe you just change your mind before reaching them because they no longer suit you.
Through divine timing (as always), I have had recent discussions with friends about the difficultly this questions pose. What if you don’t even know what the dream is? My response was … yet. If you do not know what your dreams are that is okay too! I have learned that it is okay not to know. Maybe you do not know what they are because you believe they need to be big and grand. Your dreams can be as ‘big’ or ‘small’ as you choose. What is big to you can be small to someone else because at times we seek for something that needs to healed instead of obtained. So allow your dreams to unfold for you as grow, learn, heal, and evolve. You are worthy of greatness in your own life. What does that greatness look like to you?
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