I’d be lying if I said I knew what I was doing all the time or that I had all the answers to life and beyond. Actually those statements would be quite laughable. Even with these extraordinary sensitivities to connect with all seeing and knowing beings from beyond the veil, I too must tread the trenches of this extremely dense world. The benefit it seems is being aware of the growth phases when challenged by a new lesson. Each time feeling the wave of uncontrollable change coming just when I felt myself settling in to the new energy of the previous lesson.
What could be the next layer I am to work through and release? I ask myself. Then I start digging at old experiences of my life like sorting through the attic deciding what I am ready to throw out or keep. Looking at each item feeling the memories and emotions that stir up, some with fondness, others with relief in closure. Then when my sleuthing finds nothing that strikes the internal ‘ah ha’ to what I am to work through next, I go to the discarded pile in the corner, the one I leave for last every time when I can’t find the thing I am to work on. This pile is made up of left over puzzle pieces that I can’t throw away because I know one day I will need them to complete an important picture. After over-examining them and trying to force them to fit, I finally understood the lesson that has stormed its way through this particular moment in my life…
Learning when to give up control.
The more I try to control in my life or for the future that is yet to be, the more I find myself feeling stressed, overwhelmed and even in physical pain. The more I plan, the more ways it can go ‘wrong’ because I am not allowing the unimaginable. Sometimes when I fight the energy, doing things that make me feel ‘icky’ for a ‘controlled’ result only gives my power away. And I may have been doing such that, doing what I thought others wanted to get a quick fix of gratification, like a drug.
Letting go of what’s next and not making a plan is a very foreign concept for me, and if I’m being honest, extremely uncomfortable. But this is the lesson unfolding, over and over again, provided by the universe through series’ of synchronistic events forcing me to face the inevitable truth, to give up control as if it was an addiction.
Although we do have control over many aspects of ourselves - like who/what we give energy to, I have found that control is an interesting energy that requires balance. Yes, we are able to control much but sometimes we must surrender to the flow of energy, like a dandelion in the breeze that pivots with the change of the wind.
As my guides keep reminding me, do it for Joy. Follow the Joy and you will be led to your destiny. It’s even been hinted that it may not even be what is expected. When we allow the universe to take over, maybe having a plan but open to its direction to get there, it can then bring us to new areas/paths/adventures/lessons/etc. we would not have found otherwise. Be like the dandelion and dance with the wind only stoping to ask for directions with one simple question, “does this bring me Joy?”
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